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Its Not Your Prescriptions Fault, It's You.

Writer's picture: Ash Cullen-CarterPorterAsh Cullen-CarterPorter





I was officially diagnosed with General Anxiety Disorder, Depression , & PTSD almost 3 years ago. It was actually one of the best days ever because I realized its not made up .... I really feel how I feel and its legit . I have always been one to question my gut and if I am tripping when I react to traumatic situations . EMPHASIS ON TRAUMATIC! I would go down the rabbit hole with no damn carrot thinking about how I said it , what I should have done, should I have told them I will " bash your f$%kin head in " ya know ...all that . Now that I have settled, swept the dust, got on anti depressants, and found my old self ....I feel amazing .

With feeling amazing it has made me secure my happiness in many different ways . My heart ,body, and time is a fortress that I don't play with governing .With gaurding the palace I now see the outsiders in a different way. CO workers, Karens, The Young Chicks at Kroger after the gym, potential bad lovers...the entire world. Access to mental health and general wellness needs to be affordable and allowed to all . But for those who flex outside with flashing prices and I G post to receive invisible love ..... get ride of that ugly ass handbag and use your fucking insurance .Notice I didn't use symbols on that last FUCKING.

Many times something bad happens especially if you are a specific gender or race they love to use a troubled past or mental issues. ... mmmmhmmmmmm

Sometimes people just have fucked up mannerisms, ways of getting off, and asshole tendencies. You cannot blame your diganosis ( especially self diagnosed )for every bad word, hurtful reactions, and insecurities .

You just have a suck ass spirit . Check ya self . Tell ya mama, daddy nem' to expose family secrets and /or medical problems. Kindness cost nothing but your mean ways can write a check your ass cant cash . Lastly, I know you have had it rough ..I wish I can tell you that there will not be another.. but think about the imprint you want to leave in this world .You are worthy of all great things and great love especially for yourself ..

Diagnosis can alter life especially un checked but you are the the author of the greatest book ever written ... a life you've dreamed of .

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